baby shower blues

on saturday i am going to my sister in law's baby shower. i am still not pregnant so this is not something i am looking forward to.i am excited to have a new niece but would really prefer to be having one of my own. as far as where we stand well we are getting ready to start trying again. in sept i skipped my period and then for oct and most of novemeber flo came with a vengence. hanging around and making me miserable for weeks on end. going to the doctor was no help. since i am over 40 he recomemended seeing a fertility doc. ok for me but hubby is not working and does not have insurance so no tests for him. kind of a catch-22 for us. so i am looking for a new doctor and we are going to try again this month. wish me luck