happy new year

sorry i don't make new year's resolutions. they are too easy to break. i am just hoping for a happy healthy and safe new year and hoping that the economy gets better so hubby can find a job and i can find a new one closer to home. welcome 2010!!!

snow and lice

what a weekend. my neice and nephew ended up staying until sunday afternoon. saturday we stayed at the house and went outside to play in the snow for an hour or so and watched christmas movies and baked cookies the rest of the day. sunday we dug out. the digging would have been much easier and faster if the snowblower we got from my brother worked but as of today it will start then dies after 30 seconds or so. hubby and i used the shovel and were quite happy the snow was light and fluffy. the other fun was checking my niece's hair for lice. i got a call to check her head after i got back from the grocery store. why no one called my cell knowing i was grocery shopping and could have gotten stuff while at the store i don't know. she is now bug free and my house is well laundered and vacuumed

looking for the cat

that is what we have been doing lately. a few weeks ago i came home from work and got the usual greeting from the dogs. put my stuff away and got ready to relax before bed (this was on one of the days i work 2 jobs). my husband goes to the back door to let the dogs out and there is our cat. sitting on the patio table waiting to be let in. since no one let the cat out in the first place we are trying to figure out how she got outside. a little later my hubs figures it out. he had the fireplace going and the house got too hot so he opened the kitchen window to let some air in. the cat decided that was an escape route to the big outside. she has not been outside since but any time we even let the dogs out we check to make sure the cat has not escaped again. hubs tried to let her out after the snow this weekend but she wouldn't go. hopefully she is done escaping.

survival plans

well here in eastern pa we are getting ready for snow. 6 days before christmas. it is not often i remember a white christmas many years it has been nice weather 40's and sunny. of course i made plans to baby sit / steal me neice and nephew over night at my house this weekend. needless to say they may both get christmas presents early thanks to the weather. good thing i bought them boots and snowpants they may be usefull this weekend. now i need to prepare to be snowed in. i am going to go food shopping after dinner and then be able to not leave my house other than to play if the weatherman is right. worse part about the snow braving the grocery store. why extactly do people shop like they may never see food again when snow is coming? it is not like they are predicting the next ice age just snow. it will be cleared up and the roads open within days yet i see people fighting over bread ( really easy to make at home) and gallons of milk that expire in a week. if you won't drink that much in a normal week why would it disappear faster because it is going to snow?? if anyone out there can answer these questions let me know. i am sure if i lived in an area where it snows all the time i would not see this. so why do people who only see snow for a few weeks of the year panic and buy enough food for months to survive a few days.

winnie

the crazy dog. she starts out every night under the bed. at some point she moves up on the bed by our feet. once the alarm goes off all bets are off. she wants to snuggle every morning. this morning hubs and i are cuddled up trying to face getting out of bed. winnie is not happy since she is not in between us. she pokes wriggles and squeases her way between us. if that is not bad enough she wants to be petted and have her belly rubbed. at the same time she is trying to lick us. i am sure if she didn't wiggle in to get her snuggles we would be happy to fall back to sleep but she is the 2nd alarm every morning.

december already

well time is flying by latly. too much going on and no answers to important questions is the state i'm in.

it is cookie baking season in my house. i have the tv set up and my movies ready and 4 kinds of cookies baked. still 10 or 12 more kinds to go but i am hoping to knock out at least 4 or 5 more kinds this weekend.

flo has been wreaking havoc in my life latly. i skipped in sept. she came for 18 yes 18 days, left for 6 and returned for another 14. i have been to the doctors since i freaked over the length and severity. he sent me for blood tests. i go next tuesday for the test results. doctor is unsure if i miscarried or there is a hormone imbalance. oh boy some fun huh.

not much else is going on i am selling things on ebay from my uncles house. it is up for sale and fairly well cleaned out. one more trip for the last few things and i won't have to feel my heart break walking into the house any more. cleaning it out and just being there hurts. i can't wait for it to be gone at least then i won't have to walk inside and face the memories and regrets.

so where have i been??

no where really. just trying to deal with life lately. flo left and came back a week later. at least this time she came when due and should be gone again soon. hopefully putting everything back to normal in that area. my uncles house is cleaned out for the most part and up for sale. this really breaks my heart since the house has been in the family since the 1950's. i am really sad to see it go. we still have not heard how much his stock and pension are worth and no check so far which is really starting to annoy me. my parents lawyer needs to earn his fee and soon. hubby and i are going to start trying for a baby again. if i am not prego by january i will see the doctor and move onto the next step.

last but not least hubby and i went to a party at a friends house saturday night. this was just the thing to brighten our moods. he was not sure he wanted to go and decided at the last minute yeah lets go. of course the easiest way to get there we can't use because the road is shut down because of an accident. so we took the long way and then didn't get home until almost 4 am. little by little i am getting to know his friends and i had such a blast hanging out with everyone. of course most of them had not heard we had gotten married so it was fun to suprise a few people. the ones who heard were very happy for us and it is great to see how happy his friends are for us. ( he is the last of the group to get married) hopefully this winter we can have everyone at our house for a party and we can rock out our basement. (he and his friends were in a band when younger)

boo hoo

the phillies lost. i am bummed. most optomistic quote heard on the morning news spring training is around 100 days away.lol maybe next year. other than that i have nothing but bad news lately. not pregnant and have had flo really really outstay her welcome. yes she is still around can't wait to get rid of her. lastly it is looking like we need to sell my uncles house. he has very little insurance and bills lined up and waiting to be paid. last hope is the balance of his pension. no idea how much that is and company will not tell us they will just send the money when they are ready. it is really frustrating but i know that things will get better eventually.

the phillies

go phillies !!!! last nights game was awesome. cliff lee is making me a beLEEver really fast. game 2 tonight woo hoo !!

the cat , the dog and the pop up crate

tigger loves the pop up crate, she hides inside, jumps on it and naps all the way in the back. winnie has gotten braver lately and has been going all the way in the crate. the other night i was cleaning up the dishes and i see winnie quickly backing out of the crate. i also notices tigger is being dragged out on her back. i am all ready to yell at winnie for being too rough with tigger when i realise that tigger's mouth is clamped on winnie's throat and her 2 front paws are on winnie's jaws. the cat who is 1/4 of winnie's size is beating her up. i am now laughing like crazy as tigger drops her hold on winnie and runs and hides. a little while later tigger is hiding next to the tv the other dog gracie comes out of the kitchen and tigger runs at her leaps up lands on her head and jumps off landing on the other side of gracie. poor gracie just freezes and tigger reaches up and swats at gracies nose. sometimes i think tigger thinks she is a dog and a bully as well.

happy and tired

right now i and the rest of the philadelphia area are exhausted and excited. THE PHILLIES are going to the world series for the second year in a row. for 10 years i had season tickets and they never even came close to going to the playoffs. my date for all of the years i had tickets was my dad. he decided that going to 14 games a year was not enough so since he retired he got a job as a phillies usher. he has worked almost evey home game for the last four years. last year he went to all of the playoff and world series games. now he gets to see the world series again this year. i am phillies red with envy. GO PHILLIES !!!!

the house

well if you live on the east coast you know what friday and saturday's weather was like. cold rainy mess. i drove to the shore in the rain friday and home saturday. not a fun drive that was for sure. we cleaned on friday until around 11 pm then got up saturday and cleaned until lunch. we poked through stuff in the attic and loaded up bag after bag of trash. all of my uncles clothing is now gone that freed up 4 dressers, 3 closets, 2 storage bins in the attic and 3 laundry baskets. we also were finally able to finally match up all the sheets in the house. now that they are sorted we can make beds without going through 20 sheets to find the ones that go together. the fridge and freezer are empty and there is little to no food left in the house. the next thing is the attic. for this we need a 30 yard dumpster and all the muscles we can recruit. hopefully when we go down again in november we can tackle the attic. even with everything we threw away we still managed to fill all three cars for the trip home. on a brighter note the phillies are up 3 games to 1 in the national league championship series. yeah!!!

UPDATE

well the clean out has begun. between bags of trash and stuff to sell we have barely made a dent in the work to be done at my uncles house. i am going down this weekend with my parents and brother for another session of cleaning and trash.

winnie and tigger are continuing their partnership in crime. winnie has gotten hold of one of my books and torn the cover and tigger decided to check out our dinner Sunday night hot out of the oven. tigger also has been draging around the bell on a string from one of her toys her favorite place to leave the bell is in the garbage disposal.

i am still late but the test i took was negative. if i am pregnant i will be really suprised. oh well we will find out in a few weeks. i think it is from stress since this has happened before during stressful times so we shall see. ( yes i have only taken one for now )

not much else is going on. hubby is happily reading wood burning forums and gleefully lighting a fire in the wood stove every night. i am sure by spring he will be ready for a break again but right now he is having a blast.

winnie and tigger

ok hubby and i are ready to fatten our dog winnie back up. over the spring she had lyme disease and had trouble with her one leg. she laid around and ate so she got too fat. we have put her on a diet through the vet's office and she has lost close to 5 pounds. this of course means she is back to her bad self. instead of laying around and sleeping she doesn't know what to get into next. every morning she steals one of hubby's shoes and pulls out the inner sole. runs around the house barking at every little noise. stands up on her hind legs reaches up on the dresser, pulls the cover forward and runs off with anything that gets into her reach. this means unerwear, towels, shirts, socks and papers. all trash cans must be at least 3 feet off the floor or she dumps them over. on sunday she reached up on the kitchen counter and pulled the towel forward to knock the marro bones off and gobbled them up. when she can't reach things she gets help from the cat. tigger will poke her paws into anything on the stove. yes even if it is hot. sunday afternoon i stuffed a small chicken for dinner. it came with innards which i boiled and was going to cut up as a treat for the dogs. tigger fished them out of the pot of hot water one by one rolled them around on the counter and onto the floor for the dogs to enjoy early.
winnie still needs to loose about 5 more pounds heaven help me when she does i may loose my sanity from all the trouble she will find to get into then.

how did i end up on the rollercoaster???

up until the begining of september my life was more like the merry-go-round. the horses have thier stride life goes up and down in gentle rolling hills sort of like cruise control. then WHAM!!!! next thing i know turmoil. i have known my uncle was dying for a while. his going hit me hard anyway. 4 days after one of the happiest days of my life to one of the saddest. now the really hard part the aftermath. my uncle left a HUGE! HUGE! HUGE! mess. unpaid bills, more crap crammed into his house than a family of 4 could use in a year, spoiled food, junk everywhere and don't even ask how dirty the house is. my mom is stuck with the worst part the bills and estate stuff. Now we have to straighten out his affairs and hope that in the end we can keep his house. my mom thinks we may have to sell i want to rent the house and use the cottage out back for vacations and weekends at the beach. slowly i think my mom is coming around to the renting idea. it makes sense for everyone. the house would be occupied year round and less work for us and we would still be able to enjoy the beach, as an added plus renting would also cover the taxes for the house.while i love rollercoasters and i know this one will end, it would have been nice to be more prepared for the sudden shift.
PS to make things even more interesting I AM LATE. no we have not been trying lately so who knows.

saying goodbye

sometime in the next few day i need to say a final goodbye. last night we lost my uncle. he was so much more to me than just an uncle though. He rasied my mom and her other brother when their father passed away. at the time my mom was not even 2 and her other brother was 4. that left my grandmom and my uncle who was 16 at the time with 2 small kids to raise. i guess i veiwed him more as my granfather and the only father figure my mom ever knew. I will miss you uncle O goodbye

day 3 of the rampage

the cat has been a terror lately. after spending most of saturday hiding she is making up for lost time. she is climbing the screen to the sliders. fishing things out of the garbage disposal, knocking things on the floor and trying to get into the left over cake in the cake box. just closing the box is no longer enough. when i finally got home last night i found the cake box taped shut with duct tape. seems husband spent most of monday chasing her away from the box and picking up plates and napkins she knocked on the floor. even after taping the box closed she was still trying to get to the cake by poking her arm inbetween pieces of tape. my job tonight after dinner cut up the cake and store in the fridge. maybe then the cat will calm down. probably not since there are 2 dogs to annoy but one can hope.

post party wrap up

well everyone had a great time. stuffed them selves and just enjoyed the beautiful day. my nephew wanted to know why so many people were there at "his" party. all the kids had a blast jumping in the bouncer and exploring the woods around my house. they also had as much water ice as they could get away with eating. everyone else just enjoyed getting together and celbrating with us. i got a chance to visit with everyone through out the afternoon and had extra help cleaning up. my dogs loved having so many people there as well they happily begged all day long. yes everyone caved and fed them too. now they think they are people. the cat hid under the bed in our bedroom and never came out until almost everyone had left. then she went on a rampage through the house for 3 or 4 hours.

2 days

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! I have spent today writing out a list of things to do tomorrow for the party. OMG !!!!! i have a ton to do hope there is enough time tomorrow. oh and to make things even more crazy my mother in law took 2 of her dogs for a walk last night and one was attacked by a pitt bull. mom has stiches in her hands and little D needed emergency surgury. we are waiting to here if D will be ok. Of course the dog once it finally let go disappeared and the owner doesn't know where it is. yeah right. hopefully the cops will catch the dog and the owner will be punished. the other dog Z is fine she was smart enough to run home.

3 days

until the PARTY!!! i can't wait. the house is cleaned, painted and prepped. food is precooked prediced and ordered for saturday. friday i will be doing the last minute cleaning, making dips and cutting up fruit and final food prep. saturday i get to party.

the cat

she turned 1 in august and may not live to see 2. she has been really crazy lately. so far she attaacks your feet any time you step into our basement. most of the time this is right after nearly knocking you down the stairs when you open the door and go 2 or 3 steps down. we got a pop up dog crate. the dogs will not even step foot in it. the cat however loves it. she sits just inside taunting the dogs, she tries to sit on top but it collapes. she also gets inside and rolls the pop up crate at the dogs. this is when she is not having a stare down, walking up to one of the dogs and hitting them and annoying them so they will chase her. yesterday was the topper. my husband needed a haircut. so we get out the clippers and leave the door open the dogs come outside and so does tigger. i rescue the cat from where the dogs pinned her down half way through the haircut. when we are done we realise the cat is not in the yard. after 1/2 and hour of wandering the neighborhood we finally spy her in the woods behind our house. our house in the side of a hill. we hike up the hill then chase her aroung in the sticker bushes for another 1/2 hour until finally she gets to a place where my husband can pounce on her. he comes out of the bushes with mad cat in tow and blood running down his arms and legs. if she wasn't so cute she might be looking for a new home right about now.

the dogs

this past spring my adorable dog winnie came down with lyme disease. she was sore, limping, and cranky. after a month of meds and 2 shots she was better but still sleepy and not moving much and limping a bit here and there. the vet at her yearly check up said she is over weight so now she is on a diet. the best part is she has had more energy and has been running around more lately. she goes back in 2 weeks to see how she is doing. Gracie my other dog has lost weight since coming to live with us. she now wants to run and play. every night we take both dogs out around dusk for a run on the hill in our yard. ( oh wait our yard is a hill) anyway gracie wanted to wrestle and play with winnie one night. they were both at the top of the hill. winnie was facing down hill and gracie was perpendicular to her. when winnie jumped on gracie to play gracie lost her balance and rolled down the hill. i wish i had my camera. after about 3 revolutions gracie comes to a stop stands up and shakes herself then runs back up the hill after winnie. meanwhile i am now laughing so hard tears are rolling down my face. this is life with 2 dogs. the only thing funnier is the cat ( more about her next time)

the bad blogger

it has been a busy and unsual summer. rain in june wonderful in july with a touch of getting married and a hot an hazy august with birthdays and party plans. september will hopefully slow down once the PARTY is over. I can't wait, 18 days to go and then i get to hang out with our combined families and enjoy the newly weddedness. we may not have wanted a traditional wedding but i am excited to see family and friends and celebrate finally getting married. for those of you wondering the second best part of marriage topped only by my husband is the increase in my pay check. no raise just a tax change that puts more money in my pocket every week. YEAH!!!!

mourning the end of summer

it is coming way too fast. my favorite season. heat humidity, shorts, sleevless tops, swimming in the ocean. all soon to be a memory. it goes by so quickly now as an adult. working monday to friday and only having weekends to enjoy makes the season way too short. oh to be a kid again swimming every day , staying up late, going to the beach. how i miss thoughs days. maybe i should finally go back to school and get my teaching degree. then i could havve lazy kid friendly summers again.

42

my age and the answer to life, the universe and everything

4 days

til my birthday. the best pasrt is that for the first time since i started my job i can take my birthday off. so i am shore bound monday night and returning wednesday afternoon. yeah!!!

how did my mom forget

how old my brother will be this year. i know a lot is going on around her right now with her brother getting to go home from rehabing a broken hip and her son and grandkids moving in but really. last year we were planning a double 40th party for my brother and sister in law. how soon we forget. i must admit that i had a rolling on the floor laughing my butt off moment when I realised she had forgotten. i also have been gleefully rubbing it in as well. (i klnow i am so mean) :) so in case i don't post between now and then happy birthday little brother.

2 weeks and counting

so you ask how is married life after 2 weeks. well i am happy to say it is the same as before we were married. this is not a bad thing. many people get married then move in together. that makes the first year of marriage hell or so i'm told. for us we have been living together for 2 and 1/2 years. we already know how to live together and made the commitment to each long before we got the legal papers. so for us this was more of a way to make sure our family and friends know that we are committed to being together. parents will always like seeing that legal paper that says married on it. for us getting winnie was the time when we committed ourselves to a life together. we knew if we were ready for a "starter child" we were comitting to a life together. winnie turned 2 in june and we adopted her almost 2 years ago. we are just a little slow getting the paperwork done legally.

married

July 11th 2009

sssshhhhhh!!

can you all keep a secret?? i'm getting married. i am so excited. when?? i'm not telling. keep checking back for the offical date.

so where have i been

no where really. beerfest was fun. drank too much but had a blast. worked all week then went to the shore last weekend. checked on my uncle and enjoyed a little tiny bit of sun. i am still trying to get out in the sun but it has been raining too much around my way lately. this is the first week it is starting to feel like summer. boyfriend and i are planning some good stuff for the summer and a house warming party for the fall. we wanted to do it over the summer but some of our family is out of town for july and august so. we are aiming for sept.
other than that things are good. dogs are happy and winnie has even forgiven us for shaving her bottom bald. soon we may not even be able to play connect the freckles on her butt. at least enough hair has grown in we don't have to worry she will get sunburned going out to pee. tigger is getting funnier everyday. she loves the new dehumidifier in the basement. she rubs up against it and is thrilled to have full access to the entire basement again. she also loves that we need to empty it at least once a day and check it at least 2 or 3 times and she can attack our ankles when we enter the basement. gracie follows boyfriend every where he goes. yes every where or at least tries. she is doing well and has been a great addition to our family. if i am not around much i am enjoying my summer see you when things slow down in the fall

beer fest

boyfriend and i are going to a beer fest. my first. lots of friends beer and food. can't wait for the weekend

busy weekend

here is winnie before and after her haircut. notice the pink skin and freckles now visable all over her. i did not want her cut so short but that is what we got.

the shower was good. lots of traffic to annoy me but the party was good. i am glad it is behind me.

baby shower

this weekend i am going to a baby shower. i am feeling lots of things right now.
1 freaked out. the shower is for my soon to be ex sister inlaw's sister. wow what a mouthful. anyway i am picking up my niece for the shower
2. sad. i really hoped to be pregnant by now and it will be hard seeing someone pregant when i want to be so bad.
3. happy the mom to be is married and happy. since i have known her since she was still in elementery school i am happy that she is in a good place.
all of this is swirling around in my head and i still have to go buy a gift. i know i know i am really pushing the last minute. i know it will be fun and my niece will be there but it will also be weird. the last time we all saw each other was my nephews birthday right before the split. wish me luck

busy not being busy

not much to post lately. we are chugging along like everyone else. not even anything interesting to tell .

TGIF

now how do i make the day go faster??? it is dragging by and i am so bored. it doesn't help i am thinking of all the stuff i could be getting done at home before we go to the shore tomorrow. 80 degrees and a beach what more could you ask for in may. we are taking the dogs and leaving the cat. heaven help us when we get home on sunday. the cat will have 24 hours with no dogs and extra food. i am sure her bowls will be empty and she will be starving when we return. i can't wait to take the dogs on the beach. they will love the exercise and being spoiled by my dad.

still recovering

wow busy weekend. on saturday my parents brought the last of my stuff to my house and my neice and nephew for a sleepover. my parents stayed for lunch so we bbq burgers yummy. after that it was my time with the kids. we went to a local ochard to check it out and to a local playground. the kids and i had a blast. before heading back to my house we stopped at the dollar store. the kids got bubbles, sidewalk chalk and a toy and i grabbed a few things we needed. then we played more at my house. the dogs ran all day and only took a short nap instead of half a day nap. gracie followed ben every where. she ran around so much and refused to leave his side i had to make him stand next to the water bowl so she would drink. after dinner we played some more and then it was bath time. my nephew was filthy. i think there is still a ring of dirt in my tub from him. then my niece got clean too. afterward we made popcorn and watched a movie. after that we watch some more tv and i finally told the kids to go to slepp i was exhausted. around 3:30 in the morning my nephew decided it was time to sleep with me and boyfriend. i said ok and moved over so he could be on the end. he wasn't fast enough and winnie moved right in and took the spot i made. so i backed up and moved her off and he snuck in the middle of the bed. the next few hours consisted of elbows and knees to the head and ribs. sunday we got up and made breakfast eggs and pancakes. we played a bit more and then left to meet there dad and my mom for lunch. we had a great time but i am still recovering from so much excitement. we are also preparing for next weekend when we will drive to the shore to get the house ready for summer and check on my uncle. another busy and crazy weekend to come.

yeah for the weekend

we are having my niece and nephew stay over. i can't wait yeah!!!

wednesday again

well this week is slowly going by. having a 3 day weekend even if i was sick makes this week feel even longer.our newest dog gracie was a bit nervous last night. every time one of us moved she jumped up and would run around. she kept scaring winnie who was trying to sleep. there must have been thunder in the area. we didn't notice but she must have heard it. i must say if anyone told me that i would live on an acre and a half of ground and have 2 dogs and a cat i would have laughed and said not me. see i have a confession. until getting winnie i was afraid of dogs. they made me very nervous and i hated when they would bark, jump at me or lick me. most of that goes back to an incident when i was a toddler and a dog jumped into the playpen i was in at the time. i grew up around a few dogs but never spending any real time with one to get over my fear. now i must say I LOVE MY DOGS !! having them has been the best experience and i wish i could have had one sooner. i love my boyfriend for so many things and i am ever grateful to him for convincing me to get a dog. i don't think i will ever not have one around again. when i talked to boyfriend about taking gracie from my brother and sister-in-law because they were spliting up i was suprised at how fast he agreed to take her even though he had never even seen the dog
before. i must say we have quite a little family going. i can't wait to add to the bunch.

no work friday

well i stayed home from work today. i tried to sleep thursday night and that didn't work i couldn't fall asleep at first because my sinus were dripping and making me cough and when i did fall asleep the same thing would happen and i would wake up. i did finally get a few hours this morning and naps with waking up this afternoon. i am hoping a weekend of sleep will send this cold packing. i don't have anything to do so i can rest and hopefully get better for next weekend.

NEW TIRES

for the past few months one of the tires on my car keeps getting low. lately it has been getting more and more frequent. we have also noticed that my tires are getting bald. boyfriend and i have been pricing them and debating what to do. they are really expensive tires since the dealership upgraded the rims to try to sell the car becuase it was returned. last night by the time i got home the tire was flat. boyfriend put air in it to see if it would hold until he could take my car for new tires today. so much for putting some money away first. we had hoped to be able to do 2 pay them off and do 2 more but boyfriend got a deal. we buy 3 and get the 4th one free. so now i am getting 4 new tires and i will be safer on the road.

just my luck

temps in the 80 and me home sick all weekend. nothing like a cold on top of allergies to make your weekend lousy. satuday i did feel up to a bit of gardening and got the laundry and grocery shopping done but that was all. sun i slept went to the communion party sleeping in the car on the way to the party and home and napping more when i got home. i did get a good night's sleep last night so i am feeling better today but i am losing my voice now too. i really do hate spring. i order of summer please.

yeah for the weekend

well i am ready for the weekend. this has been an emotional week and i am ready to enjoy my time off and spoil my dogs. winnie ran over and greeted me at the door last night. i was so happy to see her moving around and using all 4 feet. she slept alot during the day but was more like herself last night. this morning she was wiggling in between us this morning in bed when the alarm went off. looking for her morning snuggle and pets.
we are getting summer like temp in my area this weekend and i am so ready to do more gardening and enjoy the outdoors again on satuday. we also have a 1st communion party to go to for one of boyfriends cousin's on sunday.

update

i am a bad mommy. my poor little winnie has lyme disease and another one from ticks. her foot is due to joint swelling and pain. last night when i got home she was just laying on the floor with these huge sad eyes. all i wanted to do was cry. this morning she was barely moving around so we knew that it was more than her foot. my boyfriend took her to the vet and now she has gotten a shot and pills to take and will be going back for more shots in 2 weeks. i am so relieved that she will be well again. i miss the bossy little dog that jumps up on my bed in the morning and licks me in greeting every day and wakes me up on the weekends. the cat is running amuck throught the house unchecked and things are just not right.

worried about winnie

my cute fuzzy little white dog hurt her foot. we don't know what she did but last night and this morning she will not put her one foot on the floor. i called the vet who of course is not in the office today and she will be getting checked out tomorrow. hopefully it is nothing serious. we can't see any swelling, bleeding, and she is not chewing on it but of course she won't let us check it out either. update tomorrow

busy weekend

wow what a nice weekend. i washed my car and worked on our gardens. i cleaned out the one in front of the house and part of the one in front of the garage. i even started some plants.

yeah for a beautiful weekend

i am excited for this weekend the weather is warming up and maybe a dose of sunshine will make me feel better. i have been exhausted for the past week. in bed asleep by 9pm. i hate spring i long for steady weather. this 30's one day 60's the next and who know what the next just kills me. only 65 days til summer and 46 day til memorial day weekend. yes i am counting and using tooth picks to keep my eyes open until the weather steadies into all warm all the time.

dad 1 fuzzy white dog 0

my boyfriend went to put the leash on winnie and she freaked. she ran toward our bed room to hide under the bed. boyfriend thinking ahead had closed the door. unfortunaly the door was not closed tight and when winnie barreled into the door it popped open. since that is her safe spot and she growls and snaps if you try to pull her out boyfriend took the covers off the bed moved the mattress and lifted the box spring. he grabbed the dog and put on her leash. winnie then turned into the angel dog and happily pranced around on the leash and got in the car and went to the vets office. there she sniffed the new vets office and happily went with the vet for her shot. before we bought our house she never went out without her leash. when we first moved in we would have to go outside with her so she would go. lately winnie has decided that she doesn't want the leash on and fights us. how far she has come since oct.

taking bets

how much trouble can 1 cute white fuzzy dog cause getting ready to go to the vets office??? we shall see. more tomorrow

fun was had by all

dinner on saturday night was a blast. my girlfriend and i got to catch up. her daugher came too and she is too funny. she is also very bossy. she needed ketchup for her dinner and pestered the waiter for it. then demanded a box to take home the leftovers and ice cream for dessert. we all got to share her ice cream. i also got to know her boyfriend a bit more. we had met before but it was a long time ago before they began dating.
our tax return came and it went in and out of my account in the blink of an eye. i did manage to save part of the money the rest went to paying off bills from buying our house. now i only have a few bills left and my car payment 22 months to go. i can't wait to pay off my car. at least there is light at the end of the tunnel. i will never take a 6 year car loan again. it is never ending.

time for the weekend

yeah i can't wait 2 days off with my honey. sat night we are going out to dinner with friends of mine. we are going to ruby tuesday's. it is ok but my friends boyfriend is picky and said no to some really good places. oh well we will deal. it is more for us to get together than the food. the rest of the weekend is for us. maybe it is just me but i love spending time with my boyfriend. he is my best friend. even though we live together i still feel like we don't get enough time together. part of that is my job. i travel an hour each way to work and i work from 8-5. that makes 11 hours a day away from home. mon and wed is even longer since i have a second job and don't get home until 10pm. hopefully i will be able to find a job closer to my house soon and that will help a great deal.

doggie nirvana

both dogs have adjusted well to each other. they even played together a lot over the weekend. my boyfriends mom came down on sunday afternoon with one of her dogs for a meeting. gracie hid most of the time. i had a 60 lbs sheltie trying to hide behind me on the sofa shaking like a leaf. we finally got all 3 dogs outside and running around. dublin my boyfriend's mom's dog started barking at gracie and winnie ran over to protect her it was so cute. the cat is even starting to roam around the living room again.

what happen to fun in baby making

that seems to be the big question for us. after talking the other night we have realised that we are both freaking out over trying to have a baby. just in different ways. to make matters worse his freaking out freaks me out which then makes his freaking out worse so of course i freak even more. we both agreed to try to relax more and not freak each other out. i think i really scared him when i said i was ready to give up. he took it as on us and i only meant getting pregnant. now that we are talking and more relaxed we have been able to at least get a few tries in this cycle. if this time doesn't work we will try again. now if we could both enjoy this that would makes things even better.

on the doggie front things are going well. they get along and are starting to play a bit more. now we just have to get gracie to stop chasing the cat back in the kitchen ever time she sets foot in the living room and we are good to go. tigger is the queen and is very put out that gracie is no longer scared of her. now we just need a kid to add to the mix to terrorize them all and we will be set

more updates

well this was a busy weekend. since my brother and sister in law are breaking up boyfrined and i offered to take one of their dogs. her name is gracie and she is a 5 year old sheltie. sweet dog who moved in on friday night. winnie bullied her on friday but mellowed out the rest of the weekend. they get along for the most part with occasional snaps and growls. the cat is still not sure about the new dog and has been in her secret hideout ( the basement) alot but is slowly warming up to the newest addition.
i finished my taxes yeah for refund!!
other than that things are not good on the baby front. there is nothing going on actually. i really want this and boyfriend is so not in to it. we are at a stalemate. there is no point in going to the doctor. he has no insurance and no interest. i am ready to give up. if you don't hear from me for a while i am just trying to figure out what is next for us and how i give up the thing i have wanted the most. don't worry leaving him is not an option i just need time to adjust.

updates

well sleeping has been better lately. i am still tired but i am not waking up during the night. we are still trying to get pregnant. i will talk to the doctor if i do not get pregnant this month and we will go from there. other than that i have a post swirling in my head that i am not sure if i should write. i will think about it and decide later. last but not least i need to get my taxes done. it is a pain this year with selling stock and buying a house. the refund will be good but i need help to make sure i get it right. i miss my simple easy taxes.

why can't i sleep

lately it seems i am really tired but then i don't sleep all night. is it the time change,the begining of spring, or all the stress in my life. i don't know i just want to fall asleep and not wake up for 8 hours. one good night that is all i want.

the good the bad and the ugly

the good was saturday. nephew's birthday was a blast. lots of pizza and kids and fun for all.
the bad was sunday. i took my dog for a walk. great exercise for us both. the last house before mine has the neighborhood horrible dog. barks all the time and gets loose and attcks cars and motorcycles. the dog was out and running around. i could not tell if it was loose or not so i freaked. by the time winnie and i got home we were both on edge. then boyfriend and i tried to wipe winnie's paws since they were muddy that did not go well. she freaked and tried to nip us and we got mad i (gulp)hit her and boyfriend locked her in her crate, i know bad parents. she finally forgave us today.
last the ugly or maybe the end of ugly. my sister in law is filing for divorce. my brother suffers from depression and is making everyone miserable and she can't take it anymore. i just hope she follows through this time. no more taking him back and him promising to change and doing it for a while then backsliding. i have been waiting for this to happen since the last time they split. once the dust settles everyone will be much happier.

temps are rising

it will be warm this weekend. i am so excited. my nephew's birthday and warm weather for the weekend makes me happy. i can't wait!!

SORRY I HAVE BEEN MISSING

after that lovely funeral on tuesday. i have been working and going to another funeral. saturday i had to go to the funeral of the owner of the company i work for. so much fun. nothing like going to a viewing out of respect for his son who has been running the company for years and his wife. only to have management make you feel like they were checking you off a list of those who showed. i expected people to see me there but blatently saying oh look **** showed up as you walk in the door is annoying, rude, and childish.

wow that was so bad

i don't even know where to start. i went to a funeral today for a lady i worked with for over 12 years. even when we worked together her kids had no time for her and her funeral was even worse. her daughter was late to the funeral home so the grave side service scheduled for 10:45 was more like 11:45.there was no viewing so going to the service was the only way to pay my respects. while there her daughter talked about how cold and unloving and lonely her mom was and that she didn't think her mom was going to heaven. i don't think i have ever wanted to punch someone at a funeral until today. i left the funeral in shock and angry that her kids were so rotten. no one deserves the send off this woman got from her own family.

so here is to vivian a lovely and kind woman who never forgot a birthday or anniversary.she was a dedicated friend who would help out in any way she could. may you finally be at peace and way from your rotten unloving kids. you will be missed.

still waiting

no baby but we can try again this weekend. my uncle is going back to the shore this week as well so we can try every where. i still haven't herad anything on the job interview. they had more interviews and said they would call the end of this week. so i wait.

waiting is hard

well flo is due this weekend will she come or will she stay away for 9 months. i want to pee on a stick but i am trying to wait and see. i am trying to be patient for tomorrow but today is dragging by. wish me luck on the job interview i would love to work closer to home and hopefully get paid more money. i will try to update tomorrow or friday.

how do you say relief

unemployment finally sending your boyfriend his first check 6 weeks after appling. we have been waiting forever. we still don't even know what his payments will be. he tried calling for days and waiting on hold and never getting through. he finally tried the number to check when your payment was sent and found out he got paid. we are both so relieved. we would have known sooner but his bank website is down and has been since monday. now we just need to wait to find out if i am expecting but it will be a calmer wait.

now the hard part

waiting to find out if i am pregnant. so hard i can't wait to be expecting

trying to make a baby

that is what we have been up to the last few days. my cycle is not regular so figuring out when gets a bit tricky. we need to cover more time than most but at least it is fun to work on this project together. now all i need is for the stars to aline and whatever other magic needs to happen so we get a little one. wish us luck

2 years

boyfriend and i met 2 years ago on super bowl sunday. our first date was at the movies while the game was going on. this has been the best 2 years of my life. no matter what i know that i want to be with him and i can't wait to see where our lives together take us.

where did the week go???

last weekend was a blast the kids were so excited to sleepover friday night. we had pizza for dinner and played a bean bag toss game and watched movies together until bed time. the kids finally fell asleep around 11:30pm and i finally fell asleep as well. in the morning we all went out for breakfast. then we went home and the kids explored the yard and watched tv. we also baked chocolate chip cookies. my neice helped me to mix and bake and my nephew was happy to eat them. in the afternoon my brother and sil came for an early dinner and then they all headed home. after they left and we cleaned up my boyfriend and i went to hear the band he was in play. boyfriend only wanted to go for a little while and leave early. we ended up getting home at 3 am after i dragged my boyfriend to the car. sunday was just a nice relaxing day to recover before the work week. this week flew by. wednesday's snow and ice kept me home and the break was a treat. i love snow days. i spent the whole day in my pj's and never even set foot outside.

it is friday

and i have 1 hour left at work before i borrow my neice and nephew. we are all excited and can't wait. yeah for the weekend!!

IS IT FRIDAY YET

my nice and nephew are finally coming to stay overnight at my house. i am so excited. my niece found out this morning and i am sure my nephew will know by the end of the day. i am so excited to spend time with them. now that i am an hour away i don't get to spoil them and play with them as much. even if we just hang out and watch movies i will be happy. winnie will be so excited too. she loves them and will go nuts when they walk in the door friday night with me. the kids are also excited to see the kitten tigger they haven't seen anything but pictures of her so far and can't wait to play with her. now how do i make the rest of today and tomorrow go by fast while i am this excited?

a day to remember

wow our country has come a long way. president obama a first for this country i did not expect to see until i was a grandparent. i am looking forward to seeing were this fascinating man take us.

fun in the cold

next time the temp get to zero in your area try this. boil a pot of water, take it out side and throw water into the air. you get instant frozen vapor cloud and no water. so cool. boyfriend found this online and of course we had to try it. next time i will have to take pictures so cool

is it spring yet

i am so ready for warm weather and it is only january. this week in pa we are getting an arctic blast. yuck!! the only good thing is having the fireplace lit 24-7. gotta love having an insert and being able to heat your house. we have lots of dead or old and dying trees on our property and the boyfriend is planning his use of his newest toy the chain saw. while not ready to tackle the giant trees on our land he has been tackling the smaller ones. although even that is not always easy. at least the indoors are a balmy temp if the outdoors is nearing zero. yes zero this week.

i think i'm addicted to facebook

my sil got me to join facebook i did but that was as far as i got. today i decided to poke around a bit. wow i found friends i haven't talked to in a while and even my college roommate i lost touch with years ago. now i finally understand why people love this site so much. i am having fun (much needed) catching up with old friends and even family. people i used to bump into once in a while i can now chat or leave messages anytime. now that i got it i am in trouble. i will be on there everyday. good thing it is slow at work i will have time to reconnect and revive old friendships. this is just the thing i have needed lately. i love boyfriend but i miss having friends to talk to and regret letting friendships drift away. now i will have a chance to change that.

what a way to sart the new year

my boyfriend got laid off today. wow things have been good lately and we are a bit blindsided right now. hopefully he can get a new job quickly. i really don't know what to say or do at this point so please forgive me if i disappear for a bit while i freak out. hopefully i will be back with good news soon.