wow that was so bad

i don't even know where to start. i went to a funeral today for a lady i worked with for over 12 years. even when we worked together her kids had no time for her and her funeral was even worse. her daughter was late to the funeral home so the grave side service scheduled for 10:45 was more like 11:45.there was no viewing so going to the service was the only way to pay my respects. while there her daughter talked about how cold and unloving and lonely her mom was and that she didn't think her mom was going to heaven. i don't think i have ever wanted to punch someone at a funeral until today. i left the funeral in shock and angry that her kids were so rotten. no one deserves the send off this woman got from her own family.

so here is to vivian a lovely and kind woman who never forgot a birthday or anniversary.she was a dedicated friend who would help out in any way she could. may you finally be at peace and way from your rotten unloving kids. you will be missed.

still waiting

no baby but we can try again this weekend. my uncle is going back to the shore this week as well so we can try every where. i still haven't herad anything on the job interview. they had more interviews and said they would call the end of this week. so i wait.

waiting is hard

well flo is due this weekend will she come or will she stay away for 9 months. i want to pee on a stick but i am trying to wait and see. i am trying to be patient for tomorrow but today is dragging by. wish me luck on the job interview i would love to work closer to home and hopefully get paid more money. i will try to update tomorrow or friday.

how do you say relief

unemployment finally sending your boyfriend his first check 6 weeks after appling. we have been waiting forever. we still don't even know what his payments will be. he tried calling for days and waiting on hold and never getting through. he finally tried the number to check when your payment was sent and found out he got paid. we are both so relieved. we would have known sooner but his bank website is down and has been since monday. now we just need to wait to find out if i am expecting but it will be a calmer wait.

now the hard part

waiting to find out if i am pregnant. so hard i can't wait to be expecting

trying to make a baby

that is what we have been up to the last few days. my cycle is not regular so figuring out when gets a bit tricky. we need to cover more time than most but at least it is fun to work on this project together. now all i need is for the stars to aline and whatever other magic needs to happen so we get a little one. wish us luck

2 years

boyfriend and i met 2 years ago on super bowl sunday. our first date was at the movies while the game was going on. this has been the best 2 years of my life. no matter what i know that i want to be with him and i can't wait to see where our lives together take us.